Congradulations Gulf War Vets. They have found a problem which they are now calling "Gulf War Syndrome." Ten years down the pike it's official. There's something going on.
The Brits insist it is caused by the anthrax vaccine, and the genetic traces in the body are identicle with the vaccine. In the USA they can't agree. This year the official reason was tracer bullets as the likly cause of the syndrome. Now, the dominant theory is that the pills they gave combat people are the likly cause. They agree more research is needed.
It's In Your Eye-Ball Today.
FBI Releases 2007 Hate Crime Statistics
Engineers at odds about artificial reefFlorida Today Wed, 19 Nov 2008 9:53 AM PST Coastal engineering firm says building an artificial surfing reef just south of Cocoa Beach Pier would likely cost too much to justify
FBI Special Agent Samuel Hicks Killed in the Line of DutyWed, 19 Nov 2008 10:42:16 -0600
Special Agent Samuel Hicks, assigned to the Pittsburgh FBI Office, was fatally shot today while executing a federal search warrant associated with a drug distribution ring. One suspect is in custody and an investigation into the circumstances surrounding the shooting is being conducted.7:33 AM HAST Thursday
The U.S. Department of Labor has joined with the U.S. Departments of Defense and Veterans Affairs to launch a Web-based directory to help wounded warriors identify resources available to assist them in transitioning back to civilian life. The National Resource Directory encompasses more than 10,000 services and resources. This new website also allows visitors to find help and resources in their own state by clicking on a state map.
"This directory is valuable for our returning wounded warriors and their positive reintegration back into mainstream American life," said Neil Romano, assistant secretary for the Labor Department's Office of Disability Employment Policy.
This information has recently been updated, and can be accessed by visiting this link: http://www.disabilityinfo.gov/digov-public/public/DisplayPage.do?parentFolderId=10
Disney breaks ground at Hawaii resort
NASA Plans Test of 'Electronic Nose' on International Space StationTue, 18 Nov 2008 23:00:00 -0600
NASA astronauts on space shuttle Endeavour's STS-126 mission will install an instrument on the International Space Station that can "smell" dangerous chemicals in the air.
Secret Gitmo camp opened to defense lawyers
NewBallesteros out of intensive care following brain surgery on tumourCanadian Press via Yahoo! News Tue, 18 Nov 2008 4:17 PM PSTMADRID, Spain - Five-time major winner Seve Ballesteros was released from intensive care but remained in hospital on Tuesday to recuperate from brain surgery on a malignant tumour.
Associated Press - November 19, 2008 11:33 AM ET SAN JUAN, Puerto Rico (AP) - For the first time at Guantanamo, defense lawyers have seen a top-secret prison where the alleged 9/11 plotters and...
http://abcmail.net.au/t/328902/685626/6185/0/ADHD is not autismArizona Daily Star - Tucson,AZ,USAI’ve been hearing lately that Sensory Integration Disorder and Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder are now being included in Autism Spectrum Disorders. ...See all stories on this topic
It's time to help veterans with Gulf War illnessChicago Tribune - United States... we were forced under penalty of UCMJ prosecution to take, from nerve gas agents to malaria and anthrax, were a toxic coctail, a recipe from hell. ...See all stories on this topic
The Hidden Cost of the Gulf WarHuffington Post - New York,NY,USAOther long-suspect agents, like anthrax vaccines, and exposure of 100000 US troops to Iraqi poison gas dumps blown up by the US Army, may also have played a ...See all stories on this topic
Toxic Chemicals Blamed for Gulf War Illness - Washington PostBy Gary(Gary) These include exposure to nerve agents, exposure to smoke from oil well fires, and vaccines given to the troops. The panel ruled out depleted uranium and anthrax vaccine as causes. The panel also found government research and funding ...Psychology of Pain - http://psychologyofpain.blogspot.com/
Gulf war illnessBy Faheem(Faheem) By pointing to the two neurotoxins as the main cause of Gulf war illness, they played down the significance of other factors widely blamed for the symptoms, including depleted uranium, anthrax vaccines, fuels, solvents, and sand. ...Newspaper Articles - http://www.paperarticles.com/
Toxin-like Proteins Modulating Brain Function and BehaviourPharmalicencing Wed, 19 Nov 2008 11:13 AM PSTA new A new treatment for chronic pain, Arrhythmia and degeneration and behaviour disease (such as Schizophrenia, mania-depression, Alzheimer's and Parkinson's diseases).
Report Details Gulf War Illness Findings, Recommendations Altered ...Drug Topics Magazine - Woodcliff Lake,NJ,USAStudies have indicated alterations in brain structure and function, autonomic nervous system function, and neuroendocrine and immune function among these ...See all stories on this topic
Artificial brain project gets $4.9 millionSan Francisco Chronicle - CA, USAArtificial brain research has existed for decades, and in an influential 1993 essay, Vernor Vinge, a Hugo-winning science fiction writer and scientist, ...See all stories on this topic
IBM Tries to Bring Brain Power to ComputersPC World - USAIBM Research on Thursday is expected to uncover work it is doing to bring the brain's processing power to computers, in an effort to make it easier for PCs ...See all stories on this topic
New Evidence That Brain-Plasticity Based Training has Broad Impact ...MarketWatch - USAIn the latest research, 20 study participants trained on the Brain Fitness Program, ten of them on the same version as older adults. ...See all stories on this topic
New Insight Into the Controls on a Go-To EnzymeMarketWatch - USAThis research was supported in part by the National Institutes of Health, the Canadian Institute of Health Research and ALSAC. St. Jude Children's Research ...See all stories on this topic
Growth Hormone Boost May Not Slow Alzheimer'sU.S. News & World Report - Washington,DC,USA"That was the premise of this research: that by giving this medication we'd be able to influence the beta-amyloid in the brain. And we didn't receive this ...See all stories on this topic
Foundation Offers Free Brain ScansThe Epoch Times - New York,NY,USA“We’re working with a research team to do a study of the next couple years,” Schnur said. “Hopefully we can find out whether and why brain tumors are more ...See all stories on this topic
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New scientific tool to enhance an athletes brain: ResearchHealthJockey.com - Mumbai,Maharashtra,IndiaA new research has unveiled a new technique to train the athlete’s brain in order to enhance their overall athletic performance. ...See all stories on this topic
Help veterans fight traumatic brain injuriesThe Tennessean - Nashville,TN,USAThe treatment of traumatic brain injuries is undergoing significant research and advancement. Research findings on the treatment of mild cases of such ...See all stories on this topic
Panel: Gulf War Syndrome Research LackingChannel 8 San Diego Wed, 19 Nov 2008 3:14 PM PSTA research panel has concluded that federal research has not adequately tackled finding treaDeStates disagree greatly on Amber Alert criteriaThe Associated Press
Law enforcement officials insist the alerts can be crucial to recovering endangered children, even when multiple states are involved ..
Wither the Gay Agenda?San Francisco Bay Times - San Francisco,CA,USA“Federal legislation is crucial to ensuring local law enforcement is given the tools they need to combat hate violence in our communities. ...See all stories on this topic
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Deep Brain Mapping To Isolate Evidence Of Gulf War SyndromeScience Daily Thu, 20 Nov 2008 7:15 AM PSTAs a congressionally mandated report reveals one of every four veterans of the 1991 Persian Gulf conflict suffers from Gulf War syndrome, statistical scientists are analyzing brain scan images from a nationwide sample of veterans displaying symptoms. tments for veterans afflicted by a collection of symptoms commonly called Gulf War illness. This even as potentially hundreds of thousands of veterans continue to suffer nearly two decades since the end of the conflict. es who are sexually harassed experience less job satisfaction and lower job performance
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PhysOrg Thu, 20 Nov 2008 10:47 AM PSTA new study in the journal Psycho Psychology of Women Quarterly examined the effects of workplace sexual harassment and found that employees who were harassed report lower levels of job satisfaction, organizational commitment, and job performance. Employees also experienced higher levels of psychological distress and physical problems than those who were not harassed.
PD and Federal Law Enforcement Duel Over SurveillanceWNYC New York Public Radio Thu, 20 Nov 2008 8:42 AM PSTSince the 9/11 attacks the NYPD and federal law enforcement have made progress collaborating on counter-terrorism efforts. But with the changing of the guard in Washington, old tensions between poli....
HOLIDAY HOEDOWN TO BE HELD
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MERRITT ISLAND, Fla. -- Brevard County Parks and Recreation will sponsor the 31st Anniversary of Holiday Hoedown, an event for persons with disabilities, their families and friends, on Sunday, December 14, from 2 to 4:30 p.m. at Kiwanis Island Park Community Center , 951 Kiwanis Island Park Road , Merritt Island .
Holiday Hoedown features live music, dancing, contests, food and festivities. This is the largest community special event for persons with disabilities in Brevard County .
For additional information on programming for persons with disabilities, please call the closest Parks and Recreation office: North Brevard – 264-5105; Central Brevard – 455-1380; South Brevard – 255-4436.
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Repost: A Visit to a Viet Nam Casualty Ward (High School): Poison Again
Entry for September 23, 2006
The Poison within the Poison
In 1998-1999, the flood of information about the chemicals in the carpet and the horrific effects on the body washed over my world. Everything that had come before was swept away in the putrid overload. I was swimming desperately to stay afloat. The only thing I found to cling to in the deluge was the federal court process and the novel I was working on. I hung on to my word processor like a life jacket while computer after computer was hacked and destroyed. One of the things that was back-pocketed was the envelope of talcum powder from Nigeria. Without FBI follow-up, I skittered off this bizarre incident into the infinitely crazy world of litigation. It was in a dimension I had never imagined existed. It was like some crazy chess game with a dizzying list of rules moderating every thought of movement. It was a place where you could not talk, even to correct mistakes so blatant that flashed like neon bozo nose on the face of what was happening. My lawyer, post stroke, screwed up. My transcripts were stolen. My EEOC file disappeared. On two occasions my girlfriend and I woke up to a dog being tortured to death outside our bedroom window at midnight. The apartment was broken into to.
My mind settled into a narcotic like puddle where everything blended like pudding mix and oil.
How exactly were these events related?
I was getting sicker.
Was it the anthrax or the chemicals?
Was it the electricity?
The circuits in my girl friends house were clearly crossed.
The house was hot-boxed and under some kind of surveillance.
I kept thinking about what I had learned on the sugar cane plantations, back when there were sugarcane plantations. The Russian Extraterrestrial (or so they said) and electrical genius Nikolai Tesla had been hired by the Hawaiian Royalty to electrify Hawaii. The royal palace was electrified before the White House in the United States. The literacy rate was also higher than it was in our own country. That was just prior to the overthrow of the monarchy.
While Tesla was there, the plantations also hired him. You can see the transformers he designed for the plantations workers homes in plantation museums there. Usually without explanation.
The second and third generations’ accounts of the plantation workers are that the houses of the time were wired up in a crude reward/punishment mode. The positive effects were sexual. The negative effects were aggressive and painful. The spine would bristle under extreme electrical exposure. We experienced that.
My eight year relationship broke apart under the pressure.
The anthrax issue became just a puzzle piece.
Entry for September 22, 2006,
Poison Choices2 No Ask, No Tell
The second red flag ran chills up my spine.
I think it was the grammar.
There was a clause in the termination agreement that said in part: "Employee shall make no reference, allusion, or allegation of any wrongdoing against employer in any public media or privately."
Under executive order and my sworn oath as a deputized federal marshal my obligation to report all illegal activities supersedes all other considerations, especially when there is a possibility of a clear and present danger. It is clear how present that possibility of danger is. Failure to report is punishable by at least a year in jail and a 10,000 dollar fine At least it was the last time I checked. That’s a hefty time in the can and quite a chunk of change for a spineless, morally reprobated act like participating in a safety cover-up at a clinic that services children, families and disabled people. But not hefty enough.
After the Enron scandal, I am of the opinion that public corruption should be viewed as a form of domestic terrorism. At the government level, that’s treason of the highest kind. That is betraying office and public trust. The reforms recommended by George W. Bush via his executively ordered committee on this issue triples fines and punishments for this kind of thing, as it should. It should be law instead of ideal.
If anyone at that clinic is directly responsible for any of this, from the cutting of corners on construction to the covering up of dangerous circumstances arising from construction. They should be held accountable for their actions and people should be compensated for the medical problems and life style changes that have happened as a result.
Two of my friends and coworkers have died since that time. Maybe more. I am only recently well enough to consider these things in perspective. What has happened since? I don’t know.
I have done my best to document what happened.
It may very well be up to someone else to update facts.
Friday September 22, 2006
Entry for September 21, 2006
The Poison within the Poison
In 1998-1999, the flood of information about the chemicals in the carpet and the horrific effects on the body washed over my world. Everything that had come before was swept away in the putrid overload. I was swimming desperately to stay afloat. The only thing I found to cling to in the deluge was the federal court process and the novel I was working on. I hung on to my word processor like a life jacket while computer after computer was hacked and destroyed. One of the things that was back-pocketed was the envelope of talcum powder from Nigeria. Without FBI follow-up, I skittered off this bizarre incident into the infinitely crazy world of litigation. It was in a dimension I had never imagined existed. It was like some crazy chess game with a dizzying list of rules moderating every thought of movement. It was a place where you could not talk, even to correct mistakes so blatant that flashed like neon bozo nose on the face of what was happening. My lawyer, post stroke, screwed up. My transcripts were stolen. My EEOC file disappeared. On two occasions my girlfriend and I woke up to a dog being tortured to death outside our bedroom window at midnight. The apartment was broken into to.
My mind settled into a narcotic like puddle where everything blended like pudding mix and oil.
How exactly were these events related?
I was getting sicker.
Was it the anthrax or the chemicals?
Was it the electricity?
The circuits in my girl friends house were clearly crossed.
The house was hot-boxed and under some kind of surveillance.
I kept thinking about what I had learned on the sugar cane plantations, back when there were sugarcane plantations. The Russian Extraterrestrial (or so they said) and electrical genius Nikolai Tesla had been hired by the Hawaiian Royalty to electrify Hawaii. The royal palace was electrified before the White House in the United States. The literacy rate was also higher than it was in our own country. That was just prior to the overthrow of the monarchy.
While Tesla was there, the plantations also hired him. You can see the transformers he designed for the plantations workers homes in plantation museums there. Usually without explanation.
The second and third generations’ accounts of the plantation workers are that the houses of the time were wired up in a crude reward/punishment mode. The positive effects were sexual. The negative effects were aggressive and painful. The spine would bristle under extreme electrical exposure. We experienced that.
My eight year relationship broke apart under the pressure.
The anthrax issue became just a puzzle piece.
Entry for September 22, 2006,
Poison Choices2 No Ask, No Tell
The second red flag ran chills up my spine.
I think it was the grammar.
There was a clause in the termination agreement that said in part: "Employee shall make no reference, allusion, or allegation of any wrongdoing against employer in any public media or privately."
Under executive order and my sworn oath as a deputized federal marshal my obligation to report all illegal activities supersedes all other considerations, especially when there is a possibility of a clear and present danger. It is clear how present that possibility of danger is. Failure to report is punishable by at least a year in jail and a 10,000 dollar fine At least it was the last time I checked. That’s a hefty time in the can and quite a chunk of change for a spineless, morally reprobated act like participating in a safety cover-up at a clinic that services children, families and disabled people. But not hefty enough.
After the Enron scandal, I am of the opinion that public corruption should be viewed as a form of domestic terrorism. At the government level, that’s treason of the highest kind. That is betraying office and public trust. The reforms recommended by George W. Bush via his executively ordered committee on this issue triples fines and punishments for this kind of thing, as it should. It should be law instead of ideal.
If anyone at that clinic is directly responsible for any of this, from the cutting of corners on construction to the covering up of dangerous circumstances arising from construction. They should be held accountable for their actions and people should be compensated for the medical problems and life style changes that have happened as a result.
Two of my friends and coworkers have died since that time. Maybe more. I am only recently well enough to consider these things in perspective. What has happened since? I don’t know.
I have done my best to document what happened.
It may very well be up to someone else to update facts.
Friday September 22, 2006
Entry for September 21, 2006
Poison Choices Con't
I know this is no fun.
It will be.
I promise.
I feel an obligation to my clients and the people I worked with to give a full accounting of what happened before I left Hawaii. I want them to know about how I left and what I found out before I went. For all I know the material I left behind with friends got distributed and people have added their own information to mine.
Maybe were all still in the dark, literally, with the impact of these chemicals on the eyes.
It is my deepest hope that the survivors are being taken care of.
There was heavy litigation around the Bigelow Nu Broadlock carpet adhesive. As a result, information on the product line, its legality and its impact on the human body has been severely limited on the internet to prevent further litigation.
The mediator read the data sheet on the main chemicals to me over the phone. I followed up. I don't remember what exactly I found out. I do know that the product was made by a major chemical company like Du Pont. I also know they sold their stock in the product after it became a liability. Someone else evidently could make a profit from it.
I left in the middle of a tsunami after a hurricane after an earathquake after a flood.
Things were crazy. Like many people forced to leave Hawaii I had to leave everything behind. That's why the thrift stores are so good there. It's disaster packing for a lot of people. And it usually happens around the ten year point of entry. In territorial law (made invalid by statehood in 1949) it was the law that after ten years in Hawaii, all protection of law stopped. And the newcomer was game for slaughter. The sexual assualts that happened after that point are legendary. The horror stories are many. Is this ten year point arbitrary or a linage remainder or territorial law? I can't tell you anymore than that.
At anyrate, thats what happened.
Sick and without income I lost everything I had.
As far as the chemicals and the clinic go, It’s an interesting comment on the priorities that rule these things.
It’s the same old story.
It’s money before human safety.
The E Pluribus Unum blues. Out of the many, the one, ultimately.
It’s the selfish little pig-glut called profit.
Thursday September 21, 2006 - 10:55am (EDT)
I know this is no fun.
It will be.
I promise.
I feel an obligation to my clients and the people I worked with to give a full accounting of what happened before I left Hawaii. I want them to know about how I left and what I found out before I went. For all I know the material I left behind with friends got distributed and people have added their own information to mine.
Maybe were all still in the dark, literally, with the impact of these chemicals on the eyes.
It is my deepest hope that the survivors are being taken care of.
There was heavy litigation around the Bigelow Nu Broadlock carpet adhesive. As a result, information on the product line, its legality and its impact on the human body has been severely limited on the internet to prevent further litigation.
The mediator read the data sheet on the main chemicals to me over the phone. I followed up. I don't remember what exactly I found out. I do know that the product was made by a major chemical company like Du Pont. I also know they sold their stock in the product after it became a liability. Someone else evidently could make a profit from it.
I left in the middle of a tsunami after a hurricane after an earathquake after a flood.
Things were crazy. Like many people forced to leave Hawaii I had to leave everything behind. That's why the thrift stores are so good there. It's disaster packing for a lot of people. And it usually happens around the ten year point of entry. In territorial law (made invalid by statehood in 1949) it was the law that after ten years in Hawaii, all protection of law stopped. And the newcomer was game for slaughter. The sexual assualts that happened after that point are legendary. The horror stories are many. Is this ten year point arbitrary or a linage remainder or territorial law? I can't tell you anymore than that.
At anyrate, thats what happened.
Sick and without income I lost everything I had.
As far as the chemicals and the clinic go, It’s an interesting comment on the priorities that rule these things.
It’s the same old story.
It’s money before human safety.
The E Pluribus Unum blues. Out of the many, the one, ultimately.
It’s the selfish little pig-glut called profit.
Thursday September 21, 2006 - 10:55am (EDT)
Entry for September 20, 2006
A Choice of Poisons3
It takes approximately ten years for the combination of chemicals used to gum the carpet in at the mental health clinic to impact the human body.
Wednesday September 20, 2006 - 02:16am (EDT)
It takes approximately ten years for the combination of chemicals used to gum the carpet in at the mental health clinic to impact the human body.
Wednesday September 20, 2006 - 02:16am (EDT)
Entry for September 18, 2006
The Bird Cage (Second Edit)
As distasteful as it is, you learn quickly about disability issues when your world is limited by physical or psychological barriers.
It’s not about disability. It’s about ability. I had to learn the basic skills I needed to cope with my situation. Most of that was establishing habit and doing fine adjustments on things like motor skills, fatigue and focus. The psychological brick-a-bract, the self esteem issues, the desire to fit in, and the courage to go after the things I wanted soon followed. For my personality type there’s nothing quite as motivating as someone telling me that I can’t do something or that I am not good enough to do something. That really that winds my key.
By far the most difficult things for me to adjust to were the limits that other people put on me. That had always been the case. But it becomes much more familiar when you are disabled. Statistically, in the work place, a disabled person will typically out perform an abled person when basic needs are accommodated. There are millions of disabled people who work and are not accommodated. If you are disabled you must stay in your place. If you do well, you incur animosity. Almost certainly your disability will be viewed by some as an advantage. You become recognizable as different. Social isolation is common. The challenges that some people face are far greater than what other people face but you must never, I repeat never compare disabilities. As Cervantes, the man that wrote “The Man of Lamancha” wrote, “comparisons are odious.”
Every person’s situation is unique, and uniquely painful. I stayed busy. When I got back from the hospital in San Antonio, I hit the ground running. I was active in the church choir. I played in bands. I became the president of the Catholic Youth Organization and became Student Council President. I slept a lot. I’d be in bed right after dinner on nights when I had nothing to do. My bed was between two huge speakers from the first stereo built in the 1960s. The dial glowed green and threw weird shadows against the wall. I listened to KRCB in Council Bluff Iowa, and had vivid dreams of working there. I occasionally listened to KFMQ in Lincoln.
I had managed to cope most of my life with my situation. It was a dreamy existence. Because of the autism, I had developed a keen hyper-focus. I was very present tense when I was oriented. When I wasn’t it was like being drugged. It had taken me eight years to get my B.A. The hypersomnia was bad. I slept all the time. In the mid nineties it became obvious that I would have a difficult time establishing and maintaining a career with my limits. It had taken me that long to develop the skill to see my limitations.
I saw a doctor for a consult and was tagged with the diagnosis Attention Deficit Disorder Residual. I had never had any other psychological diagnosis tagged onto me before except for PTSD. I was put on cognitive enhancers. The Doc gave me Ritalin at first which I couldn’t stand. It made me feel high all the time. The first hour you shit like a duck and smelled like pee. It milks peak experiences. I was already hyper-present. For the first week I talked fast. It caused great muscle tension. That’s why kids don’t like it. I developed a strong compassion for special need kids that I had not fully engaged before. I began looking for solutions.
I ended up on Dexedrine and Aderil alternatively. In the interim I looked for other solutions. I applied for a grant to get biofeedback equipment at the clinic and succeeded. At a very primitive level I began to learn about nuerofeedback. Nuerofeedback works for me now as does various forms of oxygen enhancement. It is in fact, nuerofeedback is statistically, more effective than psychostimulants alone. In some cases it is even more effective without. I ditched the speed.
Psychostimulants played their role. Some people need them. Despite the liabilities of taking the drugs on a daily basis it worked for me. I woke up. I was able to maintain wakefulness. My whole world opened up. I ended up in program management.
I was getting more assertive with what I needed to succeed and more self aware of my liabilities. My immediate boss offered me two solutions when I got promoted. I was told I could work at home, when I needed to. This was essential for curriculum development, and I was allowed to take breaks when I needed them. This became an issue after about an hour of intensive work. I knew I assimilated information better verbally than in a written form so I asked to be briefed on important issues and not over stimulated. These few things provided a clear road to success for my pilot programs. We stayed on task and successful for three years. She had enabled me to succeed.
These simple things also provided a roadmap on how to sabotage my success.
The disabilities contract signed by my supervisor and countersigned by the director of the clinic was admitted as evidence.
This is how that happened.
The ADA specifies that an older worker must be informed a week in advance when a termination contract is presented. The over 40 workers is allowed to review the contract in advance in a situation conducive to understanding it. It is acknowledged by the federal government that reestablishing a career after the age of 40 is extremely difficult. In a sense, it is regarded as a disability, and covered by disability laws. Management is required to inform the worker get a lawyer and that lawyer needs to be present at any termination meeting. None of the legal protocol was followed. I was surprised with the contract and asked to read and sign it on the spot. I was double teamed by two senior management people who traded rapid fire accusations and threats as I tried to read the contract. The meeting lasted well over an hour.
Hawaii has an "at will" law, meaning that essentially you can fire anyone at anytime for any reason. These elaborate manuervers were not needed. I could have been fired outright.
It was under these circumstances that I refused to resign. I was fired and left after signing a contract. I knew it was not binding, but it released my paycheck and expedited unemployment insurance. With the termination contract tucked into my pocket I left. It was the night before Thanksgiving, 1997. My girl friend and I returned that night with a senior management official and we cleaned out my office. I left everything in order, including the books I had bought out of pocket for the program.
In a most shameful act I was not allowed to terminate with clients, one of which committed suicide shortly after I left. Nobody knew what had happened to me. The foster parents I supervised had asked for a Ho’o’pono’pono ceremony which is how Native Hawaiians traditionally problem solved difficult family situations. They were promised this ceremony. It never happened. It was in this manner I left one of the most important positions in my career. It was a job that was more than a job. It was a charge by the Hawaiian community to serve there. Something I took very seriously. Seriously enough to stand my ground as it was ripped out from under me.
It was the popping of yet another bubble in the bigger picture, a red flag over something not quite right. My cognition was deteriorating.
Entry for August 07, 2007
The Bird Cage With Notes
On A Visit To A Viet Nam Casualty Ward
This photograph was taken in the Early 1970s. Pictured are Don Fawn, Michael Zangari (On brace), Colleen and Cathy Williams and Suzy Hearn. That is not the way Susan's last name was spelled in the paper. It was wrong. I had to guess about the right spelling. . But then again the paper said I wasn't in the picture. Dave Fisher is somewhere in the background doing Dave Fisher things, though the papers says he is Dennis Daugherty. Dennis Daugherty was in the Mamas and the Papas. I'm not sure he sat in with us. Dave wasn't exactly thrilled to be in the church choir, evidently or was getting the full force of the resentment for doing "California Dreaming" in church. We did some odd songs for a Catholic choir. Songs like the Animals "Sky Pilot" We did songs by the Buffalo Springfield and the Association as well. Don did "Embryonic Journey" and "Good Shepard" by the Jefferson Airplane to fill time.. We were popular. People pretty much left us alone. If there was a lot of behind the scenes action, I'll never know. The sixties were over. The news hadn't reached us yet. I do know that a woman in the congregation once brought us a copy of "Why Me Lord" by Kris Kristofferson to learn. But we didn't. I'll take that one to my grave. We should have learned it. The photo is a U.S. Air Force photo by David Hartley and appeared in the Offutt Air Force Base paper. We were performing at the local psychiatric hospital in Omaha. It was another captive audience. We got a USO bus when ever we performed off base. I liked that. Riding in the dark. We took that bus one other time to the Nebraska State Penitentiary. Another captive audience. It was our Folsom Prison Blues show, the girls in their famous mini-dresses out there in front. We got paid in cake.
In rewriting this I wanted to make clear that this is not a snot on the sleeve kind of essay. I survived very well thanks to a good family and friends. People asked for it for perspective. I was glad to give it. I claim my life everyday. And celebrate it.
Entry for September 18, 2006
The Bird Cage (A Third Edit)
In the Kurt Vonnegut novel “Sirens of Titan,” Malachi Constance, the main character, is kidnapped and imprisoned on Titan one of the moons of Mars. He is forced to endure mind control and is made to march in the army of Mars.
Of his experience Malachi Constance was reflective. He said “I was a victim of a series of accidents. As are we all.”
I have been a pinball most of my life. Shot into space in a random trajector. I have fallen against electronic bumpers and rebounded into maze tunnels that spit me out for ten points, or lofted me gently between the flippers into another blank start against the plunger. Like Malachi Constance, it has been a long series of accidents that have brought me here. There have certainly been contributing factors along the way psychologically and physically. It's exactly like pinball in the brain. The hip. The number of beers. The song on the jukebox or the sensitivity to tilt all have an impact.
It is all the product of the factors of existence gummed together by the torch of suffering in dark eyes and the need for action. We all need to keep moving.
To this day I’ve tried to play it the way it fell. With varying degrees of success. As have we all. You do the best with what is flippered to you.
I was born with a heart murmur which impacted the way the left hemisphere of my heart pounded in my chest. In this case, it beat weakly. The blood picks up oxygen in the left hemisphere of the heart and pinballs it to the brain, which impacts cognition. The lower levels of oxygen have made me hypersomnic most of my life. I sleep a lot. Even when I am awake. It was observed in school early on that I was probably autistic. Later I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder. The truth is, I was sleepy.
Show me a child with significant cognitive difficulties and I'll show you a heart murmur or heart defect. It's about oxygen delivery.
I had to teach myself to write. I didn’t learn it in school. I had a hard time paying attention. I liked to read. I learned to write by imitating the words I read.
I was basically “in a world of my own” as my mother is fond of saying. In sixth grade when I started watching Johnny Carson on television I discovered stand up comedy.This shocked me back into the world. The comedians were commenting on what they saw. It was funny. I gave it a shot in class with solid results. I did a guest shot from the back of the room. I had an indulgent teacher who laughed at my jokes. i stayed after to sit at her desk and talked about life. Later, she rode a pinball to the Marshall Islands mid-term to follow her husband's assignment. The incoming teacher was a tougher audience.
My fate had shifted again.
I learned my third lesson about success in the entertainment industry in the seventh grade. I was had just come from a successful year run in sixth grade. I knew about applause. In fifth grade I had leaned about jealousy. People resented you when you did well. It was a wheel inside a wheel. Acceptance and rejection spun inside each other like fancy hub caps. I thought I was ready for a bigger venue. I was hooked on the acceptance. The jealousy was irrelevant, or part of the candy of success. It was just validation. People didn't appreciate my act. It was clear that my humor needed to evolve beyond the sixth grade.
Entering seventh grade I had to do it all over again. My prior success in a small pond did not transfer. Nobody knew who I was in the big school. I didn’t look right. I didn’t smell right. I was not accepted immediately by everyone. I was not the sun in everybodys life that I was at home. I was the bottom of the pile again. I was nobody and not particularly welcome. I was still a fish in a pond. A very big pond. I needed a vinyl jacket to fit in and got one. It didn't help my status any. It was just a uniform for the Army of Mars. I learned how to march.
Two years later I was diagnosed with scoliosis. This is a rare bone disease in males that makes the spine twist into a “s” curve like the roads in the mountains above Monte Carlo. I leaned to the right like the tower in Pisa.
In females, the disease is more common. I had friends who had the disease and had their spines fused as a mandatory treatment. The males got back braces without the surgery. I was told that I would have to wear a hulking, erector set of a brace. The doctor explained this as best as he could. My mom was in tears. I went into shock. I didn't know what the heck he was talking about or why my mother was crying. It would be ok.
I was going to wear the Eiffel Tower under my vinyl jacket. That's all.
In those years, the brace fit like a bird cage with a harmonica rack up under the chin. It was huge. It could not be ignored. They prepared the students in school for my return to class. I was going to be wearing armor to class. I was one of the first to get the brace.
One day I disapeared from school.
Nobody knew what happened to me. They assumed there had been a tragic back injury. Most people thought I broke my neck. It was all a big secret. Everybody knew it must have been terrible.
I was whisked off to a hospital in San Antonio, Texas to be fitted with the hardware.
My father was in the Air Force. The medical costs were covered by the CHAMPUS program.
I was carried onto an airplane on a stretcher. It was a Med Evac plane with a big red cross on the tail. The plane was the size of an airliner. There was one guy sitting in his pajamas and slippers in front, and I was in the back in my sling, hanging from the ceiling and swaying as the jet took off.
Laying in a stretcher carried by medics into the airplane was the first clue that things were not going to be the same. This was serious. My dad following behind was the second clue. He had always in front. Now he was walking behind my cart like at the president's funneral. Like I had been assassinated.
I took theairplane ride flat on my back, suspended from cables from the roof of the airplane. It was an interesting angle. I was well into another level of shock.
En route, the snow began to fall. I could hear them talk about it on the intercom. Visibility was a factor. Out the window, the view was as gray-blue as the blanket that was spread over me. Bad conditions beame a blizzard. Conditions were as bleak as a shaved poodle. With limited or no visability, the plane was forced down in Denver, Colorado, where we were to wait the storm out before continuing on to Texas.
The cold air hit me as they carried me into the ambulance.
My dad didn't ride along. We were seperated. I was going to have to make it without the constant gin rummy game that was going on between us. That was the mantra. "Gin." Racking up a million and one points to fill my empty head as we crossed the country. He stayed at the barracks. I went into the hospital.
It was a chilly dog out there, alright.
I mentioned that I could walk.
The corpman looked at me and shook his head.
"No, you can't."
I dropped into another level of shock in the box of shock box.
I couldn't walk.
The only place for me to stay in Denver was the Fitzsimmons Army Medical Facility. This was at the peak of the Viet Nam conflict. The casualties were so heavy that they had to screen in the lanai that circled the hospital and turn in into one long ward where the amputees arrived from the battlefields for treatment. I was placed in this ward for several days. I was the only person in this endless ward who had not lost a limb. The wounds were so fresh that they were still bleeding. The norm was a bloody bandage over a severed limb or mangled face. I was 14.
"No you can't" I thought.
I watched the ward with big eyes. It came alive after midnight with tears and pain. In the daytime it bustled with activity. The nurses came and went at a blinding speed. I tried to stay small and quiet in my bed. I watched people cope. Some were better than others. Some chose to be mean and abusive. Others nice as pie. Shock comes in many flavors and kinds.
I understood in a way I have never understood before or since what reality is. It's a crap shoot full of shrapnel.
As distasteful as it is, you learn quickly about disability issues when your world is suddenly limited by physical or psychological barriers. I saw it. I experienced it.
I came out of Fitzsimmons changed. It’s wasn't about disability anymore. It was about survival, anger and tears. It was about consiquence.
And when I got back to school in my cage, I understood it even better.
The people staring at me as I walked down the hall. Thier eyes were always there. When I bent in half or got on my knees to get a drink of water.
"Cripple" someone would yell, then run away.
I knew anger like I never knew it before. Visceral. Flaring. Real. I also knew compassion. I had a metal bar infront of me. Hugs didn't quite get to me. A friend's girlfriend wanted me to feel a hug and gave me one. Carefully placing the bar between her breasts and snuggling in. Another moment of awakening.
It’s about ability.You have to find the ways that work.
I had to learn the basic skills I needed to cope with my situation.
Most of that was establishing habit and doing fine adjustments on things like motor skills, fatigue and focus. The psychological brick-a-bract, the self esteem issues, the desire to fit in, and the courage to go after the things I wanted soon followed. For my personality type there’s nothing quite as motivating as someone telling me that I can’t do something or that I am not good enough to do something. That really that turns the key in the lock.
By far the most difficult things for me to adjust to were the limits that other people put on me. That had always been the case. But it becomes much more intimate when I understood what it meant to be disabled. Even to the degree I was.
Statistically, in the work place, a disabled person will out perform an more ambled person when basic needs are accommodated. There are millions of disabled people who work and are not accommodated. Skill level alone does not account for the general level of success.
If you are disabled you are expected to stay in your place. That place is ideally on a poster for a fundraiser where you can be airbrushed to perfection and glow printed. In the work place you are real and present. People can be uncomfortable around you. If you do well, you incur animosity. Almost certainly your disability will be viewed by some as some kind of an advantage. Your privileges as a disabled person are regarded as an unfair advantage by some over ordinary workers. You become even more recognizable as different, not only by disability, but by status.
Social isolation is common.
The challenges that some people face in the work place are far greater than what other people face but you must never, I repeat never compare disabilities. As Cervantes, the man that wrote “The Man of Lamancha” wrote, “comparisons are odious.”
Every person’s situation is unique, and uniquely painful.
I stayed busy. When I got back from the hospital in San Antonio, I hit the ground running. I was active in the church choir. I played in bands. I became the president of the Catholic Youth Organization and Student Council President. I slept a lot. I’d be in bed right after dinner on nights when I had nothing to do. My bed was between two huge speakers from the first stereo built in the 1960s. The dial glowed green and threw weird shadows against the wall. I listened to KRCB in Council Bluff Iowa, and had vivid dreams of working there. I occasionally listened to KFMQ in Lincoln.
I was completely emeshed in the radio broadcasts. They were my life. What I looked forward to. I began to learn the name of the songs.
I had managed to cope most of my life with my situation. It was a dreamy existence. Because of the autism, I had developed a keen hyper-focus. I was very present tense when I was oriented. When I wasn’t it was like being drugged. It had taken me eight years to get my B.A. The hypersomnia was bad. I slept all the time. In the mid nineties it became obvious that I would have a difficult time establishing and maintaining a career with my limits. It had taken me that long to develop the skill to simply see my limitations.
Everything else was attitude and show biz.
And the shock box. What doesn not kill you makes you stronger. That which kills you makes you dead. What else was there?
This photograph was taken in the Early 1970s. Pictured are Don Fawn, Michael Zangari (On brace), Colleen and Cathy Williams and Suzy Hearn. That is not the way Susan's last name was spelled in the paper. It was wrong. I had to guess about the right spelling. . But then again the paper said I wasn't in the picture. Dave Fisher is somewhere in the background doing Dave Fisher things, though the papers says he is Dennis Daugherty. Dennis Daugherty was in the Mamas and the Papas. I'm not sure he sat in with us. Dave wasn't exactly thrilled to be in the church choir, evidently or was getting the full force of the resentment for doing "California Dreaming" in church. We did some odd songs for a Catholic choir. Songs like the Animals "Sky Pilot" We did songs by the Buffalo Springfield and the Association as well. Don did "Embryonic Journey" and "Good Shepard" by the Jefferson Airplane to fill time.. We were popular. People pretty much left us alone. If there was a lot of behind the scenes action, I'll never know. The sixties were over. The news hadn't reached us yet. I do know that a woman in the congregation once brought us a copy of "Why Me Lord" by Kris Kristofferson to learn. But we didn't. I'll take that one to my grave. We should have learned it. The photo is a U.S. Air Force photo by David Hartley and appeared in the Offutt Air Force Base paper. We were performing at the local psychiatric hospital in Omaha. It was another captive audience. We got a USO bus when ever we performed off base. I liked that. Riding in the dark. We took that bus one other time to the Nebraska State Penitentiary. Another captive audience. It was our Folsom Prison Blues show, the girls in their famous mini-dresses out there in front. We got paid in cake.
In rewriting this I wanted to make clear that this is not a snot on the sleeve kind of essay. I survived very well thanks to a good family and friends. People asked for it for perspective. I was glad to give it. I claim my life everyday. And celebrate it.
Entry for September 18, 2006
The Bird Cage (A Third Edit)
In the Kurt Vonnegut novel “Sirens of Titan,” Malachi Constance, the main character, is kidnapped and imprisoned on Titan one of the moons of Mars. He is forced to endure mind control and is made to march in the army of Mars.
Of his experience Malachi Constance was reflective. He said “I was a victim of a series of accidents. As are we all.”
I have been a pinball most of my life. Shot into space in a random trajector. I have fallen against electronic bumpers and rebounded into maze tunnels that spit me out for ten points, or lofted me gently between the flippers into another blank start against the plunger. Like Malachi Constance, it has been a long series of accidents that have brought me here. There have certainly been contributing factors along the way psychologically and physically. It's exactly like pinball in the brain. The hip. The number of beers. The song on the jukebox or the sensitivity to tilt all have an impact.
It is all the product of the factors of existence gummed together by the torch of suffering in dark eyes and the need for action. We all need to keep moving.
To this day I’ve tried to play it the way it fell. With varying degrees of success. As have we all. You do the best with what is flippered to you.
I was born with a heart murmur which impacted the way the left hemisphere of my heart pounded in my chest. In this case, it beat weakly. The blood picks up oxygen in the left hemisphere of the heart and pinballs it to the brain, which impacts cognition. The lower levels of oxygen have made me hypersomnic most of my life. I sleep a lot. Even when I am awake. It was observed in school early on that I was probably autistic. Later I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder. The truth is, I was sleepy.
Show me a child with significant cognitive difficulties and I'll show you a heart murmur or heart defect. It's about oxygen delivery.
I had to teach myself to write. I didn’t learn it in school. I had a hard time paying attention. I liked to read. I learned to write by imitating the words I read.
I was basically “in a world of my own” as my mother is fond of saying. In sixth grade when I started watching Johnny Carson on television I discovered stand up comedy.This shocked me back into the world. The comedians were commenting on what they saw. It was funny. I gave it a shot in class with solid results. I did a guest shot from the back of the room. I had an indulgent teacher who laughed at my jokes. i stayed after to sit at her desk and talked about life. Later, she rode a pinball to the Marshall Islands mid-term to follow her husband's assignment. The incoming teacher was a tougher audience.
My fate had shifted again.
I learned my third lesson about success in the entertainment industry in the seventh grade. I was had just come from a successful year run in sixth grade. I knew about applause. In fifth grade I had leaned about jealousy. People resented you when you did well. It was a wheel inside a wheel. Acceptance and rejection spun inside each other like fancy hub caps. I thought I was ready for a bigger venue. I was hooked on the acceptance. The jealousy was irrelevant, or part of the candy of success. It was just validation. People didn't appreciate my act. It was clear that my humor needed to evolve beyond the sixth grade.
Entering seventh grade I had to do it all over again. My prior success in a small pond did not transfer. Nobody knew who I was in the big school. I didn’t look right. I didn’t smell right. I was not accepted immediately by everyone. I was not the sun in everybodys life that I was at home. I was the bottom of the pile again. I was nobody and not particularly welcome. I was still a fish in a pond. A very big pond. I needed a vinyl jacket to fit in and got one. It didn't help my status any. It was just a uniform for the Army of Mars. I learned how to march.
Two years later I was diagnosed with scoliosis. This is a rare bone disease in males that makes the spine twist into a “s” curve like the roads in the mountains above Monte Carlo. I leaned to the right like the tower in Pisa.
In females, the disease is more common. I had friends who had the disease and had their spines fused as a mandatory treatment. The males got back braces without the surgery. I was told that I would have to wear a hulking, erector set of a brace. The doctor explained this as best as he could. My mom was in tears. I went into shock. I didn't know what the heck he was talking about or why my mother was crying. It would be ok.
I was going to wear the Eiffel Tower under my vinyl jacket. That's all.
In those years, the brace fit like a bird cage with a harmonica rack up under the chin. It was huge. It could not be ignored. They prepared the students in school for my return to class. I was going to be wearing armor to class. I was one of the first to get the brace.
One day I disapeared from school.
Nobody knew what happened to me. They assumed there had been a tragic back injury. Most people thought I broke my neck. It was all a big secret. Everybody knew it must have been terrible.
I was whisked off to a hospital in San Antonio, Texas to be fitted with the hardware.
My father was in the Air Force. The medical costs were covered by the CHAMPUS program.
I was carried onto an airplane on a stretcher. It was a Med Evac plane with a big red cross on the tail. The plane was the size of an airliner. There was one guy sitting in his pajamas and slippers in front, and I was in the back in my sling, hanging from the ceiling and swaying as the jet took off.
Laying in a stretcher carried by medics into the airplane was the first clue that things were not going to be the same. This was serious. My dad following behind was the second clue. He had always in front. Now he was walking behind my cart like at the president's funneral. Like I had been assassinated.
I took theairplane ride flat on my back, suspended from cables from the roof of the airplane. It was an interesting angle. I was well into another level of shock.
En route, the snow began to fall. I could hear them talk about it on the intercom. Visibility was a factor. Out the window, the view was as gray-blue as the blanket that was spread over me. Bad conditions beame a blizzard. Conditions were as bleak as a shaved poodle. With limited or no visability, the plane was forced down in Denver, Colorado, where we were to wait the storm out before continuing on to Texas.
The cold air hit me as they carried me into the ambulance.
My dad didn't ride along. We were seperated. I was going to have to make it without the constant gin rummy game that was going on between us. That was the mantra. "Gin." Racking up a million and one points to fill my empty head as we crossed the country. He stayed at the barracks. I went into the hospital.
It was a chilly dog out there, alright.
I mentioned that I could walk.
The corpman looked at me and shook his head.
"No, you can't."
I dropped into another level of shock in the box of shock box.
I couldn't walk.
The only place for me to stay in Denver was the Fitzsimmons Army Medical Facility. This was at the peak of the Viet Nam conflict. The casualties were so heavy that they had to screen in the lanai that circled the hospital and turn in into one long ward where the amputees arrived from the battlefields for treatment. I was placed in this ward for several days. I was the only person in this endless ward who had not lost a limb. The wounds were so fresh that they were still bleeding. The norm was a bloody bandage over a severed limb or mangled face. I was 14.
"No you can't" I thought.
I watched the ward with big eyes. It came alive after midnight with tears and pain. In the daytime it bustled with activity. The nurses came and went at a blinding speed. I tried to stay small and quiet in my bed. I watched people cope. Some were better than others. Some chose to be mean and abusive. Others nice as pie. Shock comes in many flavors and kinds.
I understood in a way I have never understood before or since what reality is. It's a crap shoot full of shrapnel.
As distasteful as it is, you learn quickly about disability issues when your world is suddenly limited by physical or psychological barriers. I saw it. I experienced it.
I came out of Fitzsimmons changed. It’s wasn't about disability anymore. It was about survival, anger and tears. It was about consiquence.
And when I got back to school in my cage, I understood it even better.
The people staring at me as I walked down the hall. Thier eyes were always there. When I bent in half or got on my knees to get a drink of water.
"Cripple" someone would yell, then run away.
I knew anger like I never knew it before. Visceral. Flaring. Real. I also knew compassion. I had a metal bar infront of me. Hugs didn't quite get to me. A friend's girlfriend wanted me to feel a hug and gave me one. Carefully placing the bar between her breasts and snuggling in. Another moment of awakening.
It’s about ability.You have to find the ways that work.
I had to learn the basic skills I needed to cope with my situation.
Most of that was establishing habit and doing fine adjustments on things like motor skills, fatigue and focus. The psychological brick-a-bract, the self esteem issues, the desire to fit in, and the courage to go after the things I wanted soon followed. For my personality type there’s nothing quite as motivating as someone telling me that I can’t do something or that I am not good enough to do something. That really that turns the key in the lock.
By far the most difficult things for me to adjust to were the limits that other people put on me. That had always been the case. But it becomes much more intimate when I understood what it meant to be disabled. Even to the degree I was.
Statistically, in the work place, a disabled person will out perform an more ambled person when basic needs are accommodated. There are millions of disabled people who work and are not accommodated. Skill level alone does not account for the general level of success.
If you are disabled you are expected to stay in your place. That place is ideally on a poster for a fundraiser where you can be airbrushed to perfection and glow printed. In the work place you are real and present. People can be uncomfortable around you. If you do well, you incur animosity. Almost certainly your disability will be viewed by some as some kind of an advantage. Your privileges as a disabled person are regarded as an unfair advantage by some over ordinary workers. You become even more recognizable as different, not only by disability, but by status.
Social isolation is common.
The challenges that some people face in the work place are far greater than what other people face but you must never, I repeat never compare disabilities. As Cervantes, the man that wrote “The Man of Lamancha” wrote, “comparisons are odious.”
Every person’s situation is unique, and uniquely painful.
I stayed busy. When I got back from the hospital in San Antonio, I hit the ground running. I was active in the church choir. I played in bands. I became the president of the Catholic Youth Organization and Student Council President. I slept a lot. I’d be in bed right after dinner on nights when I had nothing to do. My bed was between two huge speakers from the first stereo built in the 1960s. The dial glowed green and threw weird shadows against the wall. I listened to KRCB in Council Bluff Iowa, and had vivid dreams of working there. I occasionally listened to KFMQ in Lincoln.
I was completely emeshed in the radio broadcasts. They were my life. What I looked forward to. I began to learn the name of the songs.
I had managed to cope most of my life with my situation. It was a dreamy existence. Because of the autism, I had developed a keen hyper-focus. I was very present tense when I was oriented. When I wasn’t it was like being drugged. It had taken me eight years to get my B.A. The hypersomnia was bad. I slept all the time. In the mid nineties it became obvious that I would have a difficult time establishing and maintaining a career with my limits. It had taken me that long to develop the skill to simply see my limitations.
Everything else was attitude and show biz.
And the shock box. What doesn not kill you makes you stronger. That which kills you makes you dead. What else was there?
Monday, November 17, 2008
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Tiny Sacs Released By Brain Tumor Cells Carry Information That May ...Science Daily (press release) - USA"Glioblastomas release exosomes in sufficient quantities to pass the blood-brain barrier. We were able to isolate them, analyze the RNA transcripts and show ...See all stories on this topic
Proof's in the brain scan: Romance doesn't have to fadeUSA Today - USABy Sharon Jayson, USA TODAY The honeymoon doesn't have to be over just because you've been together for years, new research suggests. ...See all stories on this topic
';Insight' deficit may explain denial in drug addictionGenetic Engineering News (press release) - New Rochelle,NY,USAAlthough "denial" is often considered to be a form of deception, emerging research suggests that it may be due to a specific brain dysfunction similar to ...See all stories on this topic
Researchers identify toehold for HIV's assault on brainEurekAlert! Fri, 14 Nov 2008 10:31 AM PST( University of Rochester Medical Center ) Scientists have unraveled in unprecedented detail the cascade of events that go wrong in brain cells affected by HIV, a virus whose assault on the nervous system continues unabated despite antiviral medications that can keep the virus at bay for years in the rest of the body.
WellCare Shares Plunge as Insurer Seeks New Funding (Update2)Bloomberg Thu, 13 Nov 2008 2:02 PM PSTNov. 13 (Bloomberg) -- WellCare Health Plans Inc., the U.S. managed-care provider being investigated for possible fraud, lost more than half its value in New York trading after saying it hired Goldman Sachs Group Inc.
Crystal Ball for Brain AneurysmsHealthCentral Fri, 14 Nov 2008 10:23 AM PSTLOS ANGELES, Calif. (Ivanhoe Newswire) -- Doctors describe it as a ticking time bomb that can explode unexpectedly. Brain aneurysms impact up to one in 15 Americans and carry deadly consequences. Those who are fortunate to spot the warning signs early now have a new line of defense.
Study bolsters link between Parkinson's disease, pesticideThe Fresno Bee Sun, 16 Nov 2008 10:18 PM PSTFor years, researchers have suspected commercial pesticides put people at risk for Parkinson's disease. Now evidence in the San Joaquin Valley suggests it's true.
Parkinson's association presents Spirit of Life AwardNorth County Times Mon, 17 Nov 2008 0:45 AM PSTLA JOLLA ---- Affection and respect enveloped Parkinson's disease specialist Dr. Ronald M. Kobayashi as 220 members and extended family of the Parkinson's Disease Association of San Diego gathered in The Pavilion at Hilton La Jolla Torrey Pines to see him receive the sixth annual Parkinson's Spirit of Life Award on Oct. 26.Â
Dance for the Cure: Tango improves Parkinson’s, study saysStudent Life Mon, 17 Nov 2008 1:22 AM PSTAna Rossell, of Newport Beach, California, dances tango with Argentine artist Guillermo Alio in the traditional tango district of La Boca, Buenos Aires. Researchs have concluded that tango helps patients with Parkinson’s disease improve their mobility and balance.
Cell Phone/Brain Tumor Connection Remains Inconclusive - But They Pose Neurological Health RisksNewswise Fri, 14 Nov 2008 8:26 AM PSTThere has been much speculation over the last few years about whether cell phones increase the risk of developing a brain tumor. While the cell phone/brain tumor connection remains inconclusive, the AANS cautions that cell phones present plenty of other risks to people's neurological health.
Brain 'pacemaker' may hold promiseThe Toledo Blade Fri, 14 Nov 2008 2:12 AM PSTNEW YORK - The same kind of deep-brain stimulation used to treat some patients for Parkinson's disease also helped a few people with obsessive-compulsive disorder, French scientists reported. The study involved only 16 patients, but in four of them, symptoms nearly disappeared. But many patients had serious side effects, including one case of bleeding in the brain. The treatment involved an ...
Brain tumor awareness effort hits the floorThe Delaware Business Ledger Fri, 14 Nov 2008 10:11 AM PSTThe Kelly Heinz-Grundner Brain Tumor Foundation (KHG) launched its first public awareness campaign for brain tumors with billboards, bus signs, radio spots, magazine ads, aerial advertising and, for the first time ever, a floor-graphic at the Wilmington train station.
Hawaiian islands host Super Bowl of surfingMiami Herald Sun, 16 Nov 2008 0:43 AM PSTYou're on Oahu's North Shore at the Banzai Pipeline, the most famous big wave on the world's most famous big wave surfing coastline. You set up not 50 yards from the wave's rising peak, so close you feel the shivers as its water wall shakes the shoreline.
Super Bowl of surfing comes crashing down on islandFort Worth Star-Telegram Sat, 15 Nov 2008 10:04 PM PSTVans Triple Crown of Surfing in Oahu offers thrills for spectators, too.
Dude, Surf For A TrophyHartford Courant Sat, 15 Nov 2008 4:35 PM PST"If you've never been to a surf competition in Hawaii, it's as if you took the space shuttle to the moon and got off into this very surreal experience," says big wave rider Dan Moore of the Vans Triple Crown of Surfing contests that begin here this week.
Surfing: Patacchia advances at Reef Hawaiian ProHonolulu Advertiser Fri, 14 Nov 2008 8:45 PM PSTThe waves got smaller, but the names got bigger on the second day of the Reef Hawaiian Pro men's surfing contest today.
Occy beaten in HawaiiAustralian Broadcasting Corporation Sat, 15 Nov 2008 3:18 AM PSTRetired former world surfing champion Mark Occhilupo has been eliminated in his third round heat at the World Qualifying Series event at Hawaii's Haleiwa Beach.
Downsized surf in Hale'iwaHonolulu Advertiser Sat, 15 Nov 2008 3:03 AM PSTThe waves got smaller, but the names got bigger on the second day of the Reef Hawaiian Pro men's surfing contest yesterday.
Caption OnlyWindsor Star Sat, 15 Nov 2008 2:16 AM PSTColour Photo: Reuters / WIPE OUT: A surfer crashes while surfing in Solana Beach, Calif., on Friday. While unseasonably warm temperatures bring high fire hazards to California, the beach has remained a popular place long after summer has past. ;
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
The Eye-Balled News
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The Eye-Balled News
From the Wright's Law Newsletter:
November 11, 2008
ISSN: 1538-3202
Issue: 461 Subscribers: 65,452
In This Issue:
Be a Hero...To a Hero
Military Family Month13th Annual Celebration
HR 3690: Military Family Autism Equality Act
A Lifeline for Military Families
Operation Gratitude
HR 3690: Military Family Autism Equality Act
Retired military families who have children with autism will have their health care benefits protected if bipartisan legislation introduced by Virginia Congressman James P. Moran (D-8) and Florida Congressman Jeff Miller (R) is enacted into law.
"Our soldiers risk their lives on the battlefield in service to their country. It is incumbent upon us to care for them and their families when they return home.
For retired military families with an autistic child, this benefit is a lifeline for their child's future and the family's financial future," Moran said.
A Lifeline for Military Families
Designated as the Military Family Autism Equality Act, HR 3690 will provide retired military families who have children with autism with the same health care benefits as families of active duty service members with children with autism. Department of Defense statistics indicate there are an estimated 8,784 retiree families that will benefit from this legislation.
Serving the Children of Those Who Have Served Active duty service members who have a child with autism have access to benefits through TRICARE which provides $2,500 a month (a max of $30,000 per year) for Applied Behavioral Analysis, a proven treatment for the symptoms of autism. Unfortunately, the day an active duty military person retires, their dependents lose access to the ABA benefit, according to Moran and Miller. This loss occurs if the retirement is voluntary or is forced at the end of their career obligation.
Military Retirement Shouldn't End Autism Coverage - Letter of Support for this legislation from Congressman Miller and Congressman Moran.
Read A Lifeline for Military Families by Chuck Hagee in the Mount Vernon Gazette. For more information, go to Health and Special Education Services for Military Children with Autism
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HATE CRIME STATISTICS 2007: Inside a National Scourge
You are subscribed to Criminal Justice Information Systems Stories for Federal Bureau of Investigation. This information has recently been updated, and is now available.
Innocence Lost Sting II Another 47 Kids Rescued A second national sex trafficking sweep nets 73 pimps and 518 prostitutes and rescues more kids from the sex trade.
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To Save a Child Inside a Prostitution Sting FBI agents partner with local police in an effort to rescue underage victims of prostitution as part of a nationwide sweep.
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12:00 PM EST MondayWinn-Dixie donates $400k to fight breast cancer 2:33 PM EST MondayCoggin Pontiac to lay off workers 9:30 AM EST MondayCircuit City files for bankruptcy
Grape seeds may combat Alzheimer's DiseaseTelegraph.co.uk - United KingdomEating grape seeds may help combat degenerative brain conditions such as Alzheimer's disease, according to new research. ...See all stories on this topic
The brain-gut connectionMacleans.ca - Toronto,Ontario,CanadaOther research, looking at how activity is transmitted from the gut to the brain, is focusing on a hormone called corticotropin-releasing factor or CRF, ...See all stories on this topic
Neuroimaging of Brain Shows Who Spoke To A Person And What Was SaidScience Daily (press release) - USAHowever, the findings from this study imply a less hierarchal processing of speech that is spread out more across the brain. The research was partly funded ...See all stories on this topic
UCLA Medical Researchers Report Brain Injury After Cardiac Arrest ...MarketWatch - USAThe research included a blood conditioning process employing a leukocyte (white blood cell) reduction filter, the LeukoGuard(R) BC Filter* from Pall Life ...See all stories on this topic
StalkingBellaOnline Sat, 08 Nov 2008 4:23 PM PSTStalking defined is a repeat pattern of unwanted attention. Stalking is a crime that affects over one million people each year. Every year approximately one million women and 400,000 men are victims of stalking. Do you know how to stay safe?
topic
Device lets blind people 'see' with soundsTelegraph.co.uk - United KingdomProf Blakemore, who is the former chief executive of the Medical Research Council, believes that further study into how the brain adapts to use audible ...See all stories on this topic
In Hawaii, the Super Bowl of surfingLos Angeles Times Sun, 09 Nov 2008 2:22 AM PSTEvery year, the world's best surfers flock to Oahu's North Shore for the sport's Triple Crown. The waves are phenomenal -- as long as the weather cooperates. You're on Oahu's North Shore at the Banzai Pipeline, the most famous big wave on the world's most famous big wave surfing coastline. You set up not 50 yards from the wave's rising peak, so close you feel the shivers as its water wall ...
Get an all-girl intro to surfing in MexicoNew York Daily News Sun, 09 Nov 2008 1:26 AM PSTSo you say you want to surf? Las Olas surf safaris for women in Mexico will quash any reservations or excuses that have held you back from splashing around in the waves in the past.
Surfing Cunninghams embrace the sportBeaches Leader Sun, 09 Nov 2008 4:11 AM PSTComments ( No comments posted. ) "No wind,” thought Shealyn Cunningham, 9, as she looked at the still trees outside her bedroom window in Ponte Vedra.
A Rooster's reinventionMilton Ulladulla Times Sun, 09 Nov 2008 5:20 AM PSTMick Fanning credits it as the reason he became a surfing world champion. Craig Fitzgibbon's certain it's why he's about to slip into a Kangaroos jumper again.
Slater's brothers: Same wavelengthFlorida Today Sat, 08 Nov 2008 10:42 PM PSTEver wonder what it's like being one of the brothers of nine-time world surfing champion Kelly Slater? Not really a big deal, according to older brother Sean, 39, and the younger, 30-year-old Stephen, better known as "Skippy."
Haleiwa's Bonga Perkins wins world longboard titleHonolulu Advertiser Sat, 08 Nov 2008 4:15 PM PSTBonga Perkins of Hale'iwa is the 2008 world champion of longboard surfing. Perkins, 36, clinched his second career world title by winning the Oxbow World Longboard Tour contest today at San Clemente, Calif.
Something, anything to stop the painBoston Globe - United StatesFor him, as for some of his peers, drugs meant to comfort patients became his refuge and his undoing. ''My take on Brent [above] was he was a very smart ...See all stories on this topic
FDA Approves Magnets on Brain to Treat DepressionThirdAge Sat, 01 Nov 2008 7:59 AM PDTWASHINGTON - The government has approved the first noninvasive brain stimulator to treat depression -- a device that beams magnetic pulses through the skull. Emotionally needy risk depressionThe Times of India Sat, 01 Nov 2008 0:14 AM PDTTORONTO: Emotionally needy individuals are at greater risk of recurring depression, says a new Canadian study. Myriam Mongrain, who is associate professor of psychology in York University here, studied graduate students with a history of depression, rating their levels of emotional dependence.
Brain imaging study supports the 'cognitive reserve' hypothesisEurekAlert! Mon, 10 Nov 2008 1:31 PM PSTIndividuals with higher education levels appear to score higher on cognitive tests despite having evidence of brain plaques associated with Alzheimer's disease, according to a report in the November issue of Archives of Neurology, one of the JAMA/Archives journals.
Brain scans demonstrate link between education and Alzheimer'sEurekAlert! Mon, 10 Nov 2008 1:01 PM PST( Washington University School of Medicine ) A test that reveals brain changes believed to be at the heart of Alzheimer's disease has bolstered the theory that education can delay the onset of the dementia and cognitive decline that are characteristic of the disorder.
Strokes: Electrical Brain Stimulation May Boost DexterityMedicineNet.com Fri, 31 Oct 2008 12:23 PM PDTTitle: Strokes: Electrical Brain Stimulation May Boost Dexterity Category: Health News Created: 10/31/2008 2:00:00 AM Last Editorial Review: 10/31/2008
L.I. stab slay a hate crimeNew York Daily News Mon, 10 Nov 2008 1:27 AM PSTA gang of white teens prowling for Hispanic victims stabbed an Ecuadoran man to death on Long Island in a brutal attack cops described Sunday as a hate crime.
The US has begun transferring more than $500m in Libyan compensation money to the families of American victims of the ...The Herald Mon, 10 Nov 2008 6:56 AM PSTRelatives of victims of the 2002 Bali nightclub bombings that killed 202 people responded to the execution of three Indonesian militants for the crime by saying they do not believe justice has been fully achieved.
SF Crime Study: "Today's Shooter Is Tomorrow's Victim"Bayinsider Mon, 10 Nov 2008 4:45 AM PSTSAN FRANCISCO -- A UC Berkeley study has found that nearly half – 47 percent – of the 98 homicides in San Francisco in 2007 were gang-related and that the vast majority of the victims were men who were either African-American or Latino.
7 LI Teens Accused Of Murder In Racial Bias AttackWCBS-TV New York Mon, 10 Nov 2008 10:35 AM PSTSeven Suffolk County teenagers charged in a brutal apparent hate-crime killing in east Patchogue will be arraigned on Monday. They drove the streets, according to police, looking for trouble. And late Saturday night, the white gang members found it. A murder is never trivial, but according to Suffolk County Detective Lt. Jack Fitzpatrick, Saturday's murder was especially disturbing. "The victims ...
Small Town Stunned After 8-Yr.-Old Boy Charged With Premeditated MurderCityNews Mon, 10 Nov 2008 5:30 AM PSTThe victims included his father and his co-worker, and cops allege the youngster confessed to carefully planning the crime.
The Psychology of FearThe Facts Sat, 01 Nov 2008 9:20 AM PDTYou’re home alone when you hear the crash of breaking glass. Did a dish fall off the kitchen cabinet? Or might it have been a window smashing as an intruder breaks in? You won’t know unless you look.
Sex not great, but so what, women reportChicago Sun-Times Sat, 01 Nov 2008 2:04 AM PDTSex is painful, uninteresting or unsatisfying for four of every 10 U.S. women, yet just 12 percent say they feel distress because of their difficulties, a survey by a Harvard University researcher found.
Undetectable data-stealing trojan nabs 500k accountsThe Register Fri, 31 Oct 2008 12:49 PM PDTSinowal's evil genius A well-organized crime gang has stolen credentials for more than a half-million financial accounts in less than three years using a sophisticated trojan that remains undetectable to the vast majority of its victims, a report published Friday warns.…
Protecting Yourself Against CrimeKOAT Albuquerque Thu, 30 Oct 2008 5:25 PM PDTWith armed robberies in Albuquerque on the rise and perpetrators taking aim at a wider population of victims, many are left wondering if they're next and what they should do if they are.
You Decide: Proposition 9FOX 11 News Los Angeles Fri, 31 Oct 2008 3:10 AM PDTProposition 9 has been referred to by some as a 'bill of rights' for crime victims. If it passes, it will amend the California Constitution to add provisions regarding victims of crimes. As Phil Shuman reports, Prop 9 is an emotional issue for its supporters.
Strasbourg court to consider appeals on WWII Katyn massacreRussian Information Agency Novosti Fri, 31 Oct 2008 4:33 AM PDTMOSCOW, October 31 (RIA Novosti) - The European Court of Human Rights has agreed to consider pleas from two Poles demanding that Russia recognize those killed in the WWII Katyn massacre as war crime victims, and grant access to documents on the massacre.
Falsely accused try to rebuild their livesWIS News 10 Columbia Thu, 30 Oct 2008 5:21 PM PDTIf you never thought you could be falsely accused of a crime, these stories may make you think again. Two people in the Midlands went from being suspects to victims, and now their lives have never been the same.
Ballesteros confirms he faces brain tumour fightIndependent Fri, 31 Oct 2008 8:23 AM PDTSeveriano Ballesteros will undergo a biopsy tomorrow after the five-time major champion confirmed last night that he has been diagnosed with a brain tumour. The 51-year-old, whose fame transcends the game of golf, was admitted to La Paz hospital in Madrid on Monday after briefly losing consciousness following a "partial epileptic fit" and spent until Friday night in intensive care as he ...
Balance In The Brain Is Found To Be Key In Study Of Learning Disabled MiceMedical News Today Fri, 31 Oct 2008 8:10 AM PDTA new study in the October 31st issue of Cell, a Cell Press journal, has revealed the molecular and cellular underpinnings of one of the most common, single gene causes for learning disability in humans. The findings made in learning disabled mice offer new insight into what happens in the brain when we learn and remember.
Brain’s "hate circuit" identifiedVietnam Net Fri, 31 Oct 2008 3:07 AM PDTPeople who view pictures of someone they hate display activity in distinct areas of the brain that, together, may be thought of as a "hate circuit," according to new research published in the latest issue of U.S. online journal PLoS One, available here on Thursday.
Hap LeCrone: Our defense mechanisms can protect us or do us harmWaco Tribune-Herald Sat, 01 Nov 2008 3:23 AM PDTDEAR DR. LeCRONE: My sister regularly practices amateur psychology on her friends and family, and she claims that I am over using my defense mechanisms. I’m not about to give her the satisfaction of asking her what she means. Can you please tell me what she may be accusing me of or is she just making up psychobabble? — A reader in New York
=z= The novelist, journalist and psychologist Michael Zangari http://zangarijournalism.com/
The Eye-Balled News
From the Wright's Law Newsletter:
November 11, 2008
ISSN: 1538-3202
Issue: 461 Subscribers: 65,452
In This Issue:
Be a Hero...To a Hero
Military Family Month13th Annual Celebration
HR 3690: Military Family Autism Equality Act
A Lifeline for Military Families
Operation Gratitude
HR 3690: Military Family Autism Equality Act
Retired military families who have children with autism will have their health care benefits protected if bipartisan legislation introduced by Virginia Congressman James P. Moran (D-8) and Florida Congressman Jeff Miller (R) is enacted into law.
"Our soldiers risk their lives on the battlefield in service to their country. It is incumbent upon us to care for them and their families when they return home.
For retired military families with an autistic child, this benefit is a lifeline for their child's future and the family's financial future," Moran said.
A Lifeline for Military Families
Designated as the Military Family Autism Equality Act, HR 3690 will provide retired military families who have children with autism with the same health care benefits as families of active duty service members with children with autism. Department of Defense statistics indicate there are an estimated 8,784 retiree families that will benefit from this legislation.
Serving the Children of Those Who Have Served Active duty service members who have a child with autism have access to benefits through TRICARE which provides $2,500 a month (a max of $30,000 per year) for Applied Behavioral Analysis, a proven treatment for the symptoms of autism. Unfortunately, the day an active duty military person retires, their dependents lose access to the ABA benefit, according to Moran and Miller. This loss occurs if the retirement is voluntary or is forced at the end of their career obligation.
Military Retirement Shouldn't End Autism Coverage - Letter of Support for this legislation from Congressman Miller and Congressman Moran.
Read A Lifeline for Military Families by Chuck Hagee in the Mount Vernon Gazette. For more information, go to Health and Special Education Services for Military Children with Autism
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HATE CRIME STATISTICS 2007: Inside a National Scourge
You are subscribed to Criminal Justice Information Systems Stories for Federal Bureau of Investigation. This information has recently been updated, and is now available.
Innocence Lost Sting II Another 47 Kids Rescued A second national sex trafficking sweep nets 73 pimps and 518 prostitutes and rescues more kids from the sex trade.
The link to this story has been posted on and sent to subscribers of:
Crimes Against Children Stories
Field Cases Stories
To Save a Child Inside a Prostitution Sting FBI agents partner with local police in an effort to rescue underage victims of prostitution as part of a nationwide sweep.
The link to this story has been posted on and sent to subscibers of:
Crimes Against Children Stories
Field Cases Stories
12:00 PM EST MondayWinn-Dixie donates $400k to fight breast cancer 2:33 PM EST MondayCoggin Pontiac to lay off workers 9:30 AM EST MondayCircuit City files for bankruptcy
Grape seeds may combat Alzheimer's DiseaseTelegraph.co.uk - United KingdomEating grape seeds may help combat degenerative brain conditions such as Alzheimer's disease, according to new research. ...See all stories on this topic
The brain-gut connectionMacleans.ca - Toronto,Ontario,CanadaOther research, looking at how activity is transmitted from the gut to the brain, is focusing on a hormone called corticotropin-releasing factor or CRF, ...See all stories on this topic
Neuroimaging of Brain Shows Who Spoke To A Person And What Was SaidScience Daily (press release) - USAHowever, the findings from this study imply a less hierarchal processing of speech that is spread out more across the brain. The research was partly funded ...See all stories on this topic
UCLA Medical Researchers Report Brain Injury After Cardiac Arrest ...MarketWatch - USAThe research included a blood conditioning process employing a leukocyte (white blood cell) reduction filter, the LeukoGuard(R) BC Filter* from Pall Life ...See all stories on this topic
StalkingBellaOnline Sat, 08 Nov 2008 4:23 PM PSTStalking defined is a repeat pattern of unwanted attention. Stalking is a crime that affects over one million people each year. Every year approximately one million women and 400,000 men are victims of stalking. Do you know how to stay safe?
topic
Device lets blind people 'see' with soundsTelegraph.co.uk - United KingdomProf Blakemore, who is the former chief executive of the Medical Research Council, believes that further study into how the brain adapts to use audible ...See all stories on this topic
In Hawaii, the Super Bowl of surfingLos Angeles Times Sun, 09 Nov 2008 2:22 AM PSTEvery year, the world's best surfers flock to Oahu's North Shore for the sport's Triple Crown. The waves are phenomenal -- as long as the weather cooperates. You're on Oahu's North Shore at the Banzai Pipeline, the most famous big wave on the world's most famous big wave surfing coastline. You set up not 50 yards from the wave's rising peak, so close you feel the shivers as its water wall ...
Get an all-girl intro to surfing in MexicoNew York Daily News Sun, 09 Nov 2008 1:26 AM PSTSo you say you want to surf? Las Olas surf safaris for women in Mexico will quash any reservations or excuses that have held you back from splashing around in the waves in the past.
Surfing Cunninghams embrace the sportBeaches Leader Sun, 09 Nov 2008 4:11 AM PSTComments ( No comments posted. ) "No wind,” thought Shealyn Cunningham, 9, as she looked at the still trees outside her bedroom window in Ponte Vedra.
A Rooster's reinventionMilton Ulladulla Times Sun, 09 Nov 2008 5:20 AM PSTMick Fanning credits it as the reason he became a surfing world champion. Craig Fitzgibbon's certain it's why he's about to slip into a Kangaroos jumper again.
Slater's brothers: Same wavelengthFlorida Today Sat, 08 Nov 2008 10:42 PM PSTEver wonder what it's like being one of the brothers of nine-time world surfing champion Kelly Slater? Not really a big deal, according to older brother Sean, 39, and the younger, 30-year-old Stephen, better known as "Skippy."
Haleiwa's Bonga Perkins wins world longboard titleHonolulu Advertiser Sat, 08 Nov 2008 4:15 PM PSTBonga Perkins of Hale'iwa is the 2008 world champion of longboard surfing. Perkins, 36, clinched his second career world title by winning the Oxbow World Longboard Tour contest today at San Clemente, Calif.
Something, anything to stop the painBoston Globe - United StatesFor him, as for some of his peers, drugs meant to comfort patients became his refuge and his undoing. ''My take on Brent [above] was he was a very smart ...See all stories on this topic
FDA Approves Magnets on Brain to Treat DepressionThirdAge Sat, 01 Nov 2008 7:59 AM PDTWASHINGTON - The government has approved the first noninvasive brain stimulator to treat depression -- a device that beams magnetic pulses through the skull. Emotionally needy risk depressionThe Times of India Sat, 01 Nov 2008 0:14 AM PDTTORONTO: Emotionally needy individuals are at greater risk of recurring depression, says a new Canadian study. Myriam Mongrain, who is associate professor of psychology in York University here, studied graduate students with a history of depression, rating their levels of emotional dependence.
Brain imaging study supports the 'cognitive reserve' hypothesisEurekAlert! Mon, 10 Nov 2008 1:31 PM PSTIndividuals with higher education levels appear to score higher on cognitive tests despite having evidence of brain plaques associated with Alzheimer's disease, according to a report in the November issue of Archives of Neurology, one of the JAMA/Archives journals.
Brain scans demonstrate link between education and Alzheimer'sEurekAlert! Mon, 10 Nov 2008 1:01 PM PST( Washington University School of Medicine ) A test that reveals brain changes believed to be at the heart of Alzheimer's disease has bolstered the theory that education can delay the onset of the dementia and cognitive decline that are characteristic of the disorder.
Strokes: Electrical Brain Stimulation May Boost DexterityMedicineNet.com Fri, 31 Oct 2008 12:23 PM PDTTitle: Strokes: Electrical Brain Stimulation May Boost Dexterity Category: Health News Created: 10/31/2008 2:00:00 AM Last Editorial Review: 10/31/2008
L.I. stab slay a hate crimeNew York Daily News Mon, 10 Nov 2008 1:27 AM PSTA gang of white teens prowling for Hispanic victims stabbed an Ecuadoran man to death on Long Island in a brutal attack cops described Sunday as a hate crime.
The US has begun transferring more than $500m in Libyan compensation money to the families of American victims of the ...The Herald Mon, 10 Nov 2008 6:56 AM PSTRelatives of victims of the 2002 Bali nightclub bombings that killed 202 people responded to the execution of three Indonesian militants for the crime by saying they do not believe justice has been fully achieved.
SF Crime Study: "Today's Shooter Is Tomorrow's Victim"Bayinsider Mon, 10 Nov 2008 4:45 AM PSTSAN FRANCISCO -- A UC Berkeley study has found that nearly half – 47 percent – of the 98 homicides in San Francisco in 2007 were gang-related and that the vast majority of the victims were men who were either African-American or Latino.
7 LI Teens Accused Of Murder In Racial Bias AttackWCBS-TV New York Mon, 10 Nov 2008 10:35 AM PSTSeven Suffolk County teenagers charged in a brutal apparent hate-crime killing in east Patchogue will be arraigned on Monday. They drove the streets, according to police, looking for trouble. And late Saturday night, the white gang members found it. A murder is never trivial, but according to Suffolk County Detective Lt. Jack Fitzpatrick, Saturday's murder was especially disturbing. "The victims ...
Small Town Stunned After 8-Yr.-Old Boy Charged With Premeditated MurderCityNews Mon, 10 Nov 2008 5:30 AM PSTThe victims included his father and his co-worker, and cops allege the youngster confessed to carefully planning the crime.
The Psychology of FearThe Facts Sat, 01 Nov 2008 9:20 AM PDTYou’re home alone when you hear the crash of breaking glass. Did a dish fall off the kitchen cabinet? Or might it have been a window smashing as an intruder breaks in? You won’t know unless you look.
Sex not great, but so what, women reportChicago Sun-Times Sat, 01 Nov 2008 2:04 AM PDTSex is painful, uninteresting or unsatisfying for four of every 10 U.S. women, yet just 12 percent say they feel distress because of their difficulties, a survey by a Harvard University researcher found.
Undetectable data-stealing trojan nabs 500k accountsThe Register Fri, 31 Oct 2008 12:49 PM PDTSinowal's evil genius A well-organized crime gang has stolen credentials for more than a half-million financial accounts in less than three years using a sophisticated trojan that remains undetectable to the vast majority of its victims, a report published Friday warns.…
Protecting Yourself Against CrimeKOAT Albuquerque Thu, 30 Oct 2008 5:25 PM PDTWith armed robberies in Albuquerque on the rise and perpetrators taking aim at a wider population of victims, many are left wondering if they're next and what they should do if they are.
You Decide: Proposition 9FOX 11 News Los Angeles Fri, 31 Oct 2008 3:10 AM PDTProposition 9 has been referred to by some as a 'bill of rights' for crime victims. If it passes, it will amend the California Constitution to add provisions regarding victims of crimes. As Phil Shuman reports, Prop 9 is an emotional issue for its supporters.
Strasbourg court to consider appeals on WWII Katyn massacreRussian Information Agency Novosti Fri, 31 Oct 2008 4:33 AM PDTMOSCOW, October 31 (RIA Novosti) - The European Court of Human Rights has agreed to consider pleas from two Poles demanding that Russia recognize those killed in the WWII Katyn massacre as war crime victims, and grant access to documents on the massacre.
Falsely accused try to rebuild their livesWIS News 10 Columbia Thu, 30 Oct 2008 5:21 PM PDTIf you never thought you could be falsely accused of a crime, these stories may make you think again. Two people in the Midlands went from being suspects to victims, and now their lives have never been the same.
Ballesteros confirms he faces brain tumour fightIndependent Fri, 31 Oct 2008 8:23 AM PDTSeveriano Ballesteros will undergo a biopsy tomorrow after the five-time major champion confirmed last night that he has been diagnosed with a brain tumour. The 51-year-old, whose fame transcends the game of golf, was admitted to La Paz hospital in Madrid on Monday after briefly losing consciousness following a "partial epileptic fit" and spent until Friday night in intensive care as he ...
Balance In The Brain Is Found To Be Key In Study Of Learning Disabled MiceMedical News Today Fri, 31 Oct 2008 8:10 AM PDTA new study in the October 31st issue of Cell, a Cell Press journal, has revealed the molecular and cellular underpinnings of one of the most common, single gene causes for learning disability in humans. The findings made in learning disabled mice offer new insight into what happens in the brain when we learn and remember.
Brain’s "hate circuit" identifiedVietnam Net Fri, 31 Oct 2008 3:07 AM PDTPeople who view pictures of someone they hate display activity in distinct areas of the brain that, together, may be thought of as a "hate circuit," according to new research published in the latest issue of U.S. online journal PLoS One, available here on Thursday.
Hap LeCrone: Our defense mechanisms can protect us or do us harmWaco Tribune-Herald Sat, 01 Nov 2008 3:23 AM PDTDEAR DR. LeCRONE: My sister regularly practices amateur psychology on her friends and family, and she claims that I am over using my defense mechanisms. I’m not about to give her the satisfaction of asking her what she means. Can you please tell me what she may be accusing me of or is she just making up psychobabble? — A reader in New York
=z= The novelist, journalist and psychologist Michael Zangari http://zangarijournalism.com/
Monday, November 10, 2008
It's Not Chocolate And Another Radionic Nightmare
Entry for November 10, 2008 It's not Chocolate. It is Radionics. (A Rewrite)
Summary: It’s not Chocolate
I used to chase the mosquito fogging truck in Puerto Rico, where I was a third, fourth and fifth grader. It was called “Smokey Joe” and layered out a thick white fog behind it as it moved at about five miles an hour through the neighborhood. A lot of us did that. It was like cloud walking. The military police that trailed Smokey Joe in their blue pickup trucks lazy twirled their red cop lights into the fog. It scrimmed the area red. It was an eerie flip over for a little angel caught in the devils wind.
I researched it a couple of years ago. The Air Force did not use DDT in the base housing areas during that time periods. I still need birth control.
We didn’t listen to anyone then. It was summer in summer land. After dinner we were out the door into the maze of hedges, on the streets and cliffs above the ocean and all over the place.
We played in the flooded streets during the monsoons too, the brown waters lapping at our doorsteps.
I think it was in that first year that I met some of our neighbors.
They spoke Puerto Rican more than English.
There was Humberto and his little sister, who was two or three years old.
We were talking.
Someone offered Humberto’s sister a cat turd.
He held it in the palm of his hand. It was brown as a Tootsie Roll.
Humberto held his breath.
“It’s chocolate” the boy said.
The little girl looked at it.
“No” she said. “Es caca.”
“No” the boy insisted. “It’s chocolate.”
“Es caca” she said.
They did not play with us again and oved shortly afterwards.
The Broadband Becomes As White as Smokey Joe
I came across the two news stories below this week. I had some questions about them.. They are about opening a broader spectrum of frequencies to the public, so that more people have greater access to the internet and information.
I am all for that. The novelist in me works overtime though, he/she or it likes to thicken plots.
One of the things I have been talking about quite a bit is in this blog isVibrational Medicine.
That is that everything that is, vibrates and has a frequency.
Things can be activated or shut down based on the phase of those frequencies, the combinations they come in and the wave form that organizes them.
You can open up or close down organs and circulation as well as activate glands and deactivate viruses and diseases. It’s clear that what is called “Rife Frequencies," as flawed as they are, may be a cure for the herpes virus. If used correctly they may fulfill the Star Trek model of a sonic medicine. The salt shaker Dr. McCoy used to hold over people while the sound oscillated at various speeds may very well be the tool of the future. I see a future where a doctor greets you with an electronic cello instead of a stethoscope or twaps a tuning fork and sticks it up your nose instead of taking your temperature.
He or she gives you sound advice.
I am curious about what I would call bio-available frequencies, that is electronic frequencies at phase that are harmonic and distonic with the body and environment. We know that binaural sound has a dramatic impact on the body and mind. Trinaural and pryamiding frequencies also have impact. A broad band system with infite possibilities and combination of possibilities presents problems and opportunities of a large degree.
Along with the opportunities to educate and liberate, there is also the possibility of sabotage and harmful manipulation.
In the 1920s the Fisher Radio Company began mapping frequencies and the impact on the human body. It is from that research that radio stations were assigned their frequencies. The harmful frequencies were not assigned.
If you look in my index you’ll find other entries along this line.
My concerns are in the area of vibrational and environmental impact.
It has always been the Federal Communications Commission’s job to monitor these frequencies for the impact they might have on humans. That duty should extend to the animals, physical environment and atmosphere as well.
It’s hard to say much about will happen and who will be involved.
Despite the Big Island experiments of a decade ago in Hawaii, there are still areas that are basically unknown iareas in the science of radionics and broad band broadcasting. We have never used a saturation frequency before.
Like many people in my culture we have been brought up to believe that the fundamentals of creation are in the sound. In the beginning there was the word.
Then came editors.
Being vibrational sensitive I think about these things.
I am also concerned about privacy and civil liberty issues as we all become more vibrationally accessible, as we define ourselves in the electronic environments we hang out in.
As you know I feel this is a national security nightmare.
Here’s The News.
On the cusp of a new wireless revolution?
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The Federal Communications Commission this week decided to free up the little-used “white space” spectrum between television channels. That spectrum slice will no longer be needed when the U.S. ditches analog TV broadcasts early next year.
Backers of the move believe it could usher in the age of a faster, universal wireless Internet. Broadcasters and mobile phone carriers have opposed the move, arguing new devices running in the white space could cause interference.
Guest: Stacey Higginbotham, GigaOm
November 6, 2008
Obama to push for universal broadband?
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Today we feature an interview with Jonathan Taplin of the USC Annenberg School for Communication, who recently analyzed the tech policy platforms of the presidential candidates. We talked about President-elect Barack Obama’s positions on broadband, net neutrality, and electronic privacy.
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